Another Crossroads

Alas, he am I at another crossroads.

Looking for work in a new town, and it isn’t going well.  I’m trying to make the most of my technical experience, but that’s really hard when it’s “messy”.

I’m not saying it’s impossible, because I’ve done it before.  There really are hiring managers out there who are smart enough to see through the awkward work history to the applicant’s real value and potential.  I just have to look harder to find those people.

It’s necessary to have a thick skin to do real job hunting, even before the first application is submitted.  For starters, there is a supposed “shortage” of software developers, yet there are thousands of unemployed developers who can’t get hired because their resumes don’t “smell” good.

I believe in my abilities and I know my value.  It’s a pity there’s no way to communicate that to someone who doesn’t know me from Adam.  Probably better pump some of my time into the github repo.

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SaaH (Software as a Hobby)

pantry

There’s a possibility I might be given a permanent position at the food pantry where I volunteer.

This is no ordinary small-town food pantry.  We feed thousands of families in this area, many of them working poor.  One week last year we took in 10 tons of donated food, much of it from local manufacturers.  The numbers are staggering, as is the need.

Too many people here wouldn’t have gas to get to work if they had to buy the food we distribute to them.  This state has the lowest average wages in the country.

When I’ve been between development jobs, I’ve spent two mornings a week working the shelves and climbing the ladders and rolling the pallets.  I’ve learned most of the ropes.  Somehow, the place and the people and the work have gotten into my blood.  Coming home sweaty and sore from a morning at the pantry leaves me more fulfilled than a whole day of coding.

It’s not even a conscious thing, but I remember many times during my quarter century in tech work where I asked myself just who was benefiting from my efforts.  This line of questioning was most disturbing when working for a less than philanthropic employer.  I’ve never felt guilty about what I’ve earned and how far I’ve gotten, but I’ve never forgotten the resources and privileges and family support I was blessed enough to be born into.

I love writing software, just as I love making music.  What would happen if software became the hobby instead of the occupation?  Actually, it’ll be a little of both, because expanding and improving the pantry will involve some software work.  Lucky for me, it’s inventory/warehousing stuff, which I’ve always enjoyed.

I’m at the age where giving back feels righter than ever.  In my spare time, I can contribute to open-source projects without the stress and the pace of paid development work.

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Democracee

lucee-logoTake the term “Open-Source”.

Open-source software is a good thing.  Theoretically, it means you or I or any developer can contribute our ideas and work to that software.  A very democratic idea.

Like the real world of politics, though, the ideal isn’t always practical to implement.  When, in the United States, the electoral college was created, it was meant to extend the promise of representation by letting rich and powerful men decide for their mass constituents, thereby saving their little people all that trouble of having an opinion and voting and such things.

When I think about the Linux kernel (up until a couple years ago), I think about the electoral college.  A small group of people had complete control of what was implemented in the Linux kernel.  They decided what was good for us.  Even if I could submit a pull request, it would have been ignored.

Was that bad?  If my dream was to contribute to the Linux kernel it was bad, but as a consumer of the Linux kernel I got a very stable end product.  Say what you will about the personalities involved, it worked.  (Right, and Mussolini made the trains run on time.)

It’s called “open”, yet it is only open to a handful.  An aristocracy.  That’s bad, right?  Not especially.

If a system is to have conceptual integrity, someone must control the concepts.  That is an aristocracy that needs no apology.

– Fred Brooks,  from The Mythical Man-Month

Conceptual integrity is the key.  As it turns out, a fully democratic development environment makes bad software according to Brooks.  The most effective development organization, as measured by the quality of the end product, is the “software tsar”, a single manager at the top who may accept and entertain suggestions, but whose judgement on what goes into the product is the final word.

As I understand it, one source of tension in the PHP community is that too much democracy has eroded the language’s conceptual integrity over the years.

I happened to be on IRC this morning when Lucee was announced.  A little later, there was a tweet about how one must make a $7000 contribution to influence what goes into Lucee.

Didn’t sound very democratic.  But knowing the history of CFML, I completely understand people’s frustration with a single closed-source vendor.

Having a tsar or other ultimate control of an open-source product is not necessarily meant as a barricade against the imagined anarchists in the streets and an affront to democracy.  I think the people at Lucee know the lessons of PHP and the Linux kernel.  There are good reasons for various degrees of openness in open-source, and conceptual integrity is foremost.

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Frowny Face :-(

Alas.

The job didn’t work out.  My 90-day evaluation period ended unhappily.  It seems that my two years of CFML experience was just too little.  I was getting the work done, but it was taking me too long to do so.  While they liked me personally, my pace didn’t work for their business model.  They have a huge backlog of work, and they need developers who can kick ass in a hurry, and there was no time to bring me up to that speed.

It makes me feel pretty good though, the fact that I was working with ColdFusion legends, especially since I’m still so new to the language.  In a short three months I learned FuseBox and FW/1.

Where my departure from the previous job left me bitter and angry, this departure left me sad and disappointed in myself.  I’m trying not to beat myself up over it, but don’t need to.

The simple facts have brass knuckles.

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RAM!

8 big fat Gigs of RAM on the dev machine. And 64-bit Windows 7.

W00t!

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Those Who Wait

Everything comes to those who wait, right?

I’m pretty good at waiting. You might even say I’m too patient for my own good.

I finally have the job that fits me perfectly. It took thirteen months- this time. Last time I waited 16 months for a job that didn’t appreciate me and eventually tossed me aside.

In the middle of that job, which consisted of replacing ColdFusion apps with .Net, I realized that I much preferred the existing ColdFusion code. I became a convert and started developing greenfield ColdFusion apps, utilizing new frontend technologies.

The writing was on the wall though. The company did not want or need a ColdFusion developer. At the same time, I was daily becoming MORE of a ColdFusion developer, reading blogs and following Tweets.

To me, to be a “real” CFML developer, one must be hired for their CFML skills. This was my goal, to some day be hired to work in ColdFusion.

The dream has come true. Today I accepted an offer with an East Coast company as Web Application Developer, working remote. Not only that, but I’ll be working with some big names in ColdFusion.

I’m still pretty tickled that THEY found me on LinkedIn, and somehow I’d missed finding them in my daily job search.

The Lord works in mysterious ways. But you have to be patient and LET him.

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Ridin’ the Bike Again

This morning I had a technical phone interview.  It was my second with this particular company, and was a follow-up to a project the company assigned me as a sort of test.

The project was a blast.  At almost every step, I was doing things I’d never done, for instance developing on a Mac.  I used jqGrid for the first time, and it was much easier than the cfGrid fiasco of 2013.

Most of all, it felt really good to be coding.  I’ve always got things to do, even when I’m unemployed, so I’ve hardly done any coding at all, certainly nothing meant to impress an employer.

I feel that I did a good job on it.  I may have left one or two cf variables un-scoped, but everything worked perfectly and errors were handled and the help content looked good and made sense.  While it’s not likely to wow an experienced developer, it was enough to show competency and consistency.

During this morning’s interview, I was asked whether I had experience in a number of technologies, and I was absolutely honest in telling them if I had or had not.  Unfortunately those questions are still rewinding and replaying in my mind while I wait for the offer/rejection (once several more candidates have been interviewed).  The rational part of me knows that there was simply NO alternative to telling the truth, but the irrational part says I screwed up.

In the eleven months I’ve been unemployed, this particular job has resonated more than any other.  I’ve had interviews and second interviews, but this one just feels different.  I believe that explains the anxiety I’m feeling right now.

A rejection is not going to crush me.  I’ve kept stomping forward after every rejection, and chalked up the interviews as practice.  I don’t have room for drama in my life any more, especially the kind I author for myself.  If I don’t get this job, I will look for more like it.  I have connections who have connections.

In a way, just completing the interviews and the project with this company is a victory.  If I were obviously a bad risk, these very intelligent people wouldn’t have even answered my application.

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